Jitters

Today I bring you a post written in real-time.  I'm going to try to start sitting down and just writing what comes to mind.  Blogging stresses me out some times because I want fully formed and developed ideas first, but that's not always possible.

Especially because...

tomorrow, life as I know it is o-v-e-r.

I'm starting my internship at the hospital at 9 AM tomorrow morning, my last thing to accomplish before I can officially call myself a master of social work.

Currently I feel anxious for a couple reasons:

• I'm not sure what to expect.
• I want to do well.
• The only medical knowledge I have comes from Grey's Anatomy.
• Bodily fluids.  No thanks.
• I've never worked 40 hours a week.
• School is my comfort zone.
• I want to have a life outside of work.
• Etc. etc.

I'm just being real.  For the last week, the underlying anxiety I've felt about this has been weighing on me a little.   The up side is that I've been praying a lot, and my anxiety is starting to be overtaken by excitement.  God is bigger than every reason I can find to be nervous.  Prayers are always appreciated though.

Now my lunch is made, I think I've finalized my outfit, and tomorrow I'll jump in with both feet.  The one prayer I have for this semester is that I would be hope and light on my unit, not glorifying my self or my own efforts, but Jesus.  Truly, that is what I want.  I trust God with the details and circumstances.  I trust Him to work through me and be more powerful than my flesh.  Because He will and He is.  

My last first day as an intern, hopefully ever.  Time sure does fly.  Here we go!